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| Time: | 6:44 am. |
| Mood: | babies. | | Music: | whatever. |
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i'm deleting this journal. if you still wanna be my friend, add me on ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) pieds_nus
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Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
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Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:30 pm. |
| Mood: |  cranky. |
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i'm deleting this POS and making a friends only.
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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| Time: | 9:39 pm. |
| Mood: |  crappy. | | Music: | I HATE MY LIFE - KORN OF FILTH. |
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my life has gone to shit two days before my seventeeth birthday. could life suck anymore?
don't think so.
i appreciate everyone who has gone out of their way to talk to me, and especially those who want me to bring them somewhere. i can count them up on one hand. fill up one hand, actually.. of the people who wanted me to give them a ride today. sucks, really. i want to give my license away.
and to the one person that did want a ride that i actually care about, sorry i couldn't come get you. you never called me, so i made other plans.
fuck life.
fuck 17.
someone put me in a coma,
so i can never grow up again.
i'm going to be a godmother.
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Monday, November 29th, 2004
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Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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| Time: | 2:04 pm. |
| Mood: |  excited. | | Music: | rilo kiley. |
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my mom gave me the shitty old camera. it works, it's just gimp. sometimes the screen will freeze up. but i'm glad it's mine now. i'm still getting a new one for christmas. she went behind my back and got a new one for herself and still hid the old one from me, so i was like "you better get me a new one for xmas, mom."
we're leaving in about 30 minutes for north carolina. i'm going to be super bored about 60% of the time so how about you guys call me randomly and amuse me? :)
my parents all get all huffy when we're about to leave the house for a time period that consists of more than 6 hours. they throw tantrums.
my mom is in 11 days. get me presents.
my dad wrote out a check for 575.00 to a guy that works with him, nosy me decided to read the note that went with it. and you know what's amusing? they still code-word marijuana as "something", as if i won't know what it is. hahaha.
i'll miss you all. happy thanksgiving.
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Monday, November 22nd, 2004
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| Time: | 7:05 pm. |
| Mood: |  creative. | | Music: | club 8. |
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wouldn't it be awesome if i met a guy that was funny,sweet,nice,and attractive.. that actually liked me? yes.
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Sunday, November 21st, 2004
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| Time: | 11:41 am. |
| Mood: | depressed. | | Music: | jimmy eat world. |
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i hate the fact you won't talk to me.
i hate the fact you kissed me.
i hate the fact that while you were dating her, we almost had sex, and you kept it a secret.
i hate the fact you're stubborn.
i hate that you made me cry while i was driving,
and the fact that i had to pull over on scenic to calm down.
i hate that i can't let anyone get close to me because of you.
i hate that you won't love me anymore.
i hate that you treat me like utter shit,
after all the time i've spent trying to win you back.
and now that you're single, you could give less about me.
how did i know it would end up this way?
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Sunday, November 14th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:39 pm. |
| Mood: | creative. | | Music: | walls of jericho. |
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so it's going good. i'm loving work, work is loving me.
my weekend consisted of alot of fun. friday night, there was whitney and margaret anne and stevie. i had fun with all of them. greek fest is cool if you know how to greek dance. and did anyone else notice that all greeks have big noses? went to that one band practice and it was alright. kinda eh, but alright. we left early and got checkers. whitney and i tried harmonizing.
saturday night, i worked. it was fun, for the most part. after that, i went home and hopped in the shower and headed to the show i didn't really want to go to. reason i went? to talk to two people and apologize to them both. i accomplished one but i wasn't about to sit around and wait for the last band to play to accomplish the other. so i left and headed to kemo's. kemo and graham were back from out of town so we all hung out on the back porch. dave showed up shortly after. we all played spin the bottle, but it seemed like it was "hey lets kiss cheeks".. stupid game. haha. but it was fun. nathan was a pimp.
today, i woke up around 12 ish, and went and picked up nick, got the walls of jericho cd, and dropped him off. my parents and i got into a big argument, and perfect timing, right afterwards i had to leave for work. but work puts me in such a better mood. dana stayed up there till i got off ( she got off when i came in at 4, and i got off at 9. ) and then i drove her home. damn, i love closing.
wednesday 5-9.
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Thursday, November 11th, 2004
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| Time: | 12:40 pm. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | death cab. |
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so they past few weeks have been cool. i've been working just about every day and it's not getting tiring at all yet. i'm waiting for my first paycheck cause its gonna be awesome. i've been driving alot lately too, and it seems the 902 house has become a second home for me. my birthday is coming up in a few weeks, and unfortunately, i doubt i am getting a car for it. maybe christmas, but not my birthday, because there is so much going on with my family that we really don't have any money to do that right now. i worked last night, and overheard jim talking about setting me to stock 1. which is cool. and then after i got off work, emilys hair still wasnt dyed, so i went to mistys. misty and i piled in my car and headed over to jeffs, but he was at casey's [ turns out ] and there were already too many people there. so, we went for no reason to pace, basically. after that, we went back to mistys and we sat there while i fixed my hair and then i left [ after seeing mary and angel briefly ] to get emily. i got emily and we headed over to kemos. not alot of people were there at all, they were all in auburn. so there was shane,mikey,david,dave,emily,ricki, and two other people that i don't know. we stayed there until about 12:15 and then i went and dropped dave and emily off and headed home. fun night, i guess?
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Thursday, October 21st, 2004
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| Time: | 6:37 pm. |
| Mood: |  crazy. | | Music: | le tigre. |
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drove to school today and it was fun as hell driving home. whitney and stevie came with me to the mall to get myself a new wallet and then we were off to east hill. i got the first le tigre cd.
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Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  happy. | | Music: | saves the day. |
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well i got my license.
went to the mall for a hot second, and dropped a few old friends off cause i didn't want them riding the bus. then i went and got emily and we drove all the way out to blue angel to get dave, which took longer then expected cause he wouldn't answer his door. we finally got him, and headed back to town and over to kemo's. i met a few new people and they were pretty damn cool. the type of people i could see myself chilling around a house with. but, then magoo got there and we headed to the mall. dave went with magoo in his car and i went to my hosue to get a bunch of coins and then we went to coinstar to cash it all in. i got 14 dollars, and gave 7 to magoo for gas and kept 7 for myself for gas. i filled the tank back up and my ass headed home. all in all i had alottttt of fun for my first day of driving. i just wish i could have gone back to kemo's.. :(
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:45 pm. |
| Mood: |  crushed. | | Music: | tiny vessels - death cab. |
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So one last touch and then you'll go, and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more. But it was vile, and it was cheap, and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.
that explains it.
how i feel.
how i think.
how i wish i was better than i am.
it seems to me like life doesn't matter as much anymore, like it used to back in the 4th grade when i made good grades and went to my friends houses after school to play. it should though, i'm guessing. maybe, but who knows. i need to meet someone who i am attracted to for their personality for once, because god knows, i've discovered lately that looks aren't everything. i need to grow up, when it comes to my perspective of things. i need to get a new hobby, a job, and a car. i need too much and none of it seems to be happening.
i need to fucking grow up and realize there is more to life then late nights and parties.
.. thank you nick..
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Thursday, October 14th, 2004
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| Time: | 6:44 am. |
| Mood: |  tired. | | Music: | my sleepy head music. |
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so, i'm sitting here at 6:44 and I need to be heading to school in a little way but i've really been thinking alot lately. there are a few decisions i have to make right now in life that i honestly don't feel like making. i wish my life was like the dream i had last night. me and a bunch of friends went to disneyworld. and everyone got seperated in the way that they would seperate themselves from me in the real world. and the only people left when i said "i want to go inside the park and see mickey." was, who? mary. mary was the only one left over. but, funny part, we found rachel sleeping on a wet concrete sidewalk behind this door. hahahaha. i love rach <3. anyways. some of these strange decisions are kind of tearing me up cause i don't know what to do. i wish i had a job you guys. that would make this so much easier, in a way that you don't even know. :\
i don't like eye boogers.
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Tuesday, October 12th, 2004
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| Time: | 3:20 pm. |
| Mood: |  curious. | | Music: | the pixies. |
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i honestly feel like shit. the leaking, and the mold and all that crap has really gotten to me. and for some reason, i'm having trouble breathing. :\ i don't know how to make it better so i'm trying to rest as much as possible, minus the whole school deal. i can't miss out, being i just missed 19 days for the hurricane.
i love my art classes. in my drawing class i'm doing an acrylic on matte and it's fucking gorgeous, not to brag. it's got a mixed color background and a girl standing there, and she's got longish poofy and very detailed black hair, and a body form, but no face or anything. it's just plain white. it's honestly gorgeous. i love it. and it photography, i was messing around the dark room today and i happened to make a pretty cute photogram. it was on a 5"x7" piece of photo paper and i had cut out the letter A and like, 3 H's. and so I did "AHHH" and put a little elephant on there and it came out really awesome.
i want to get a job and get my license this week. that would make an amanda extremely happy. i also want to feel better cause this mold is just going to have to die if i don't.
someone pack my a bag lunch for tomorrow. i don't feel like doing it again.
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Saturday, October 9th, 2004
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| Time: | 12:56 am. |
| Mood: |  geeky. | | Music: | the darkness, for some reason. |
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life is gay. but sometimes in a good way.
work from 12-8 tomorrow.
then to the pimps and hoes party directly afterwards.
thennn school monday.
sometimes i wish i was a beaver, so i could build my own house on the water and worry about nothing except flooding and my 839743275324 kids. :\
tonight was fun. well, the whole day in general was fun.
< dying my hair. what colorz tho!??!
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Thursday, October 7th, 2004
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| Time: | 11:20 am. |
| Mood: | awake. | | Music: | bone thugs. |
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one day away from all my close friends and i miss them more than anything. :(
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Wednesday, October 6th, 2004
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| Time: | 4:24 pm. |
| Mood: | crazy. | | Music: | postal service. |
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WE'RE NOT IN MIDDLE SCHOOL.
GET OVER IT, AND MOVE ON.
STOP ACTING LIKE I STOLE
YOUR FUCKING SOULS AND LET'S
JUST BE FRIENDS AGAIN.
i'm fucking 16 and i think this situation could be handled more responsibly.
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Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
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Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
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| Time: | 7:43 am. |
| Mood: | accomplished. | | Music: | BHJGBUYIBIUBH. |
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